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Unwell.... Saturday, March 27, 2004 Feeling unwell.. mentally, physically, spiritually, everything....... headache is increasing...Going off.. listening to.. Unwell - Matchbox 20 This Is A Call - Thousand Foot Krutch My Boy - Boa feat. SM Town \| dreamt by Matt on 3/27/2004 11:47:00 p.m. Thursday, March 25, 2004 All day Staring at the ceiling Makin' friends with shadows on my wall All night Hearing voices telling me that I should get some sleep Because tomorrow might be good for something Hold on Feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown and I don't know why (chorus) Well I'm not crazy I'm just a little unwell I know right now you can't tell But stay a while and maybe then you'll see A different side of me I'm not crazy I'm just a little impaired I know, right now you don't care But soon enough you're gonna think of me And how I used to be Me, talking to myself in public And dodging glances on the train And I know I know they've all been talkin' bout me I can hear them whisper And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me Out of all the hours thinkin Somehow I've lost my mind (chorus) I've been talkin in my sleep Pretty soon they'll come to get me Yeah, they're takin' me away Well I'm not crazy I'm just a little unwell I know right now you can't tell But stay a while and maybe then you'll see A different side of me I'm not crazy I'm just a little impaired I know, right now you don't care But soon enough you're gonna think of me And how I used to be Yeah, How I used to be How I used to be, yeah Well I'm just a little unwell How I used to be (A little unwell) How I used to be I'm just a little unwell just how i'm feeling lately..=P \| dreamt by Matt on 3/25/2004 08:51:00 p.m. trust? Tuesday, March 23, 2004 who can you really trust out there.....hmmm it's hard to place a trust in a person, and it hurts that they break that trust and it's hard to recover from a hit like that, even worse when then don't even realize it that the hurt you and move on without a sorry....i'm sitting the the computer not knowing where life is suppose to go, and suppose to do my hwk, but have a non-stop ringing headache and stress on myself. BIG Thnx to Albert for your advice man!! you ta man i luv u! and i understood wut ur getting at and i'll try my best once i'm back on my 2 feet with HIM for as humans we lose faith easily and now i do too often which is just bad news..and i can't think straight. school is dragging on, i dunno why i bother sometimes...for the education?? to a better job soo u can have a better life?? is that it? can i really just relax sit back and go with the flow? i know i can trust my hand into HIS, but why am i soo stubborn? why? why are the ways of this sinful world getting to me? soo many questions....answers are out there...... randomness: "Seek Him and you will Find" hmmm sounds familiar.......oh crap! it's 11pm gotta start me hwk! DIANA STINKS! if u read this hehehe u stink! \| dreamt by Matt on 3/23/2004 10:50:00 p.m. OMFG! WTF Monday, March 22, 2004 i can't stand it anymore though i may be a hypocrite about it, but there is way too much gossip going on and ppl talking behind ppls backs!!! WTF !!! seriously u expect us to be a fellowship?!?!? with rumours and stuff being always talked about behind each others backs!! can't a freaky fellowship talk to each other straight up instead of ASSUMING things and ASKING someone else!!! seriously even the Lord says somewheres in the Bible i forget where that gossip will break friendships and in this case our entire fellowship!!! i'm had a good chat with my mother i might leave ET for a while or for good i dunno yet just soo much rage in me at the moment!!! HOLY CRAP !#$@*(&@!! though we can try to fix this i dunno i've seen this fellowship trough a lot of crap, last min. everything no heart of GOD i know i'm being a hypocrite my self a lil here and there cause i tend to do so too like my non-christian frd told me today relax and go with the flow....i can't take it anymore...... i'm not here to state or blame anymore cause we're all in the same boat us ET ppl, and NO Sum it's not cause u knew about u know wut, that caused me to go into this complaining blog, it's not ur fault aalrite? ;P just everythign that happned on Friday is unforgiveable as a fellowship i knew we were goign to die, and i should have spoke up earlier MY BAD! ............................... \| dreamt by Matt on 3/22/2004 10:58:00 p.m. why am i always lost?? freaky i'm slowly going crazy 1..2..3.. aiya! i'm not sure how to say, but yeah......i'm just thnkful for my muiz for being there for me during this tough time, cause i can't hold it inside no more, it just had to be dealt with, and yeah i did my devos and it was like prefect it hit me good, like a good slap from Gloria..if she can figure out how to slap!! i'm feeling demons near by, and it makes the room all cold and creepy!!!!, i got them angels from Heaven i just gotta keep my faith up!. just wanna give thnkz to all them ppl that are praying for me thnx to my muiz efforts in grabbing like 10 ppl to pray......i'm getting better, still stuggling, but i'll live i think....still got that anger management problem i guess u can call it, and theres only 2 ppl that can make me ticked off in a second, and i'm hoping to change this asap! though i know one is harder than the other for sure, personal reasons if ur interested just ICQ or E-mail me MaaaFaaaaan ppl if ur reading this i can't MSN with u until after Easter!!! and i'm hoping to get baptized by then soo i'll send out an invite if i past the baptismal test! =P yup yup i luv all of you such kool kids in HIM =P REUNION!!!! asap yeah it could be at my baptism hmmmmm??????? we'll discuss that later ;P NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO school in 8 hrs and i didn't do my hwk!! ohh well off to bed i go now.......lolz FOB PIC thnx Joe the Chinaman lolz it prue jokes. \| dreamt by Matt on 3/22/2004 01:02:00 a.m.

Unwell....

Saturday, March 27, 2004

Feeling unwell..
mentally, physically, spiritually, everything.......
headache is increasing...Going off..
listening to..
Unwell - Matchbox 20
This Is A Call - Thousand Foot Krutch
My Boy - Boa feat. SM Town

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dreamt by Matt on 3/27/2004 11:47:00 p.m.

Thursday, March 25, 2004

All day
Staring at the ceiling
Makin' friends with shadows on my wall
All night
Hearing voices telling me
that I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
Hold on
Feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown
and I don't know why

(chorus)
Well I'm not crazy
I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay a while and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy
I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

Me,
talking to myself in public
And dodging glances on the train
And I know
I know they've all been talkin' bout me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinkin
Somehow I've lost my mind

(chorus)

I've been talkin in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're takin' me away

Well I'm not crazy
I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay a while and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy
I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Yeah, How I used to be
How I used to be, yeah
Well I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
(A little unwell)
How I used to be
I'm just a little unwell

just how i'm feeling lately..=P

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dreamt by Matt on 3/25/2004 08:51:00 p.m.

trust?

Tuesday, March 23, 2004

who can you really trust out there.....hmmm it's hard to place a trust in a person, and it hurts that they break that trust and it's hard to recover from a hit like that, even worse when then don't even realize it that the hurt you and move on without a sorry....i'm sitting the the computer not knowing where life is suppose to go, and suppose to do my hwk, but have a non-stop ringing headache and stress on myself. BIG Thnx to Albert for your advice man!! you ta man i luv u! and i understood wut ur getting at and i'll try my best once i'm back on my 2 feet with HIM for as humans we lose faith easily and now i do too often which is just bad news..and i can't think straight. school is dragging on, i dunno why i bother sometimes...for the education?? to a better job soo u can have a better life?? is that it? can i really just relax sit back and go with the flow? i know i can trust my hand into HIS, but why am i soo stubborn? why? why are the ways of this sinful world getting to me? soo many questions....answers are out there......
randomness: "Seek Him and you will Find"
hmmm sounds familiar.......oh crap! it's 11pm gotta start me hwk!
DIANA STINKS! if u read this hehehe u stink!

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dreamt by Matt on 3/23/2004 10:50:00 p.m.

OMFG! WTF

Monday, March 22, 2004

i can't stand it anymore though i may be a hypocrite about it, but there is way too much gossip going on and ppl talking behind ppls backs!!! WTF !!! seriously u expect us to be a fellowship?!?!? with rumours and stuff being always talked about behind each others backs!! can't a freaky fellowship talk to each other straight up instead of ASSUMING things and ASKING someone else!!! seriously even the Lord says somewheres in the Bible i forget where that gossip will break friendships and in this case our entire fellowship!!! i'm had a good chat with my mother i might leave ET for a while or for good i dunno yet just soo much rage in me at the moment!!! HOLY CRAP !#$@*(&@!!
though we can try to fix this i dunno i've seen this fellowship trough a lot of crap, last min. everything no heart of GOD i know i'm being a hypocrite my self a lil here and there cause i tend to do so too like my non-christian frd told me today relax and go with the flow....i can't take it anymore......
i'm not here to state or blame anymore cause we're all in the same boat us ET ppl, and NO Sum it's not cause u knew about u know wut, that caused me to go into this complaining blog, it's not ur fault aalrite? ;P just everythign that happned on Friday is unforgiveable as a fellowship i knew we were goign to die, and i should have spoke up earlier MY BAD!
...............................

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dreamt by Matt on 3/22/2004 10:58:00 p.m.

why am i always lost??

freaky i'm slowly going crazy 1..2..3.. aiya! i'm not sure how to say, but yeah......i'm just thnkful for my muiz for being there for me during this tough time, cause i can't hold it inside no more, it just had to be dealt with, and yeah i did my devos and it was like prefect it hit me good, like a good slap from Gloria..if she can figure out how to slap!! i'm feeling demons near by, and it makes the room all cold and creepy!!!!, i got them angels from Heaven i just gotta keep my faith up!. just wanna give thnkz to all them ppl that are praying for me thnx to my muiz efforts in grabbing like 10 ppl to pray......i'm getting better, still stuggling, but i'll live i think....still got that anger management problem i guess u can call it, and theres only 2 ppl that can make me ticked off in a second, and i'm hoping to change this asap! though i know one is harder than the other for sure, personal reasons if ur interested just ICQ or E-mail me
MaaaFaaaaan ppl if ur reading this i can't MSN with u until after Easter!!! and i'm hoping to get baptized by then soo i'll send out an invite if i past the baptismal test! =P yup yup i luv all of you such kool kids in HIM =P REUNION!!!! asap yeah it could be at my baptism hmmmmm??????? we'll discuss that later ;P
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO school in 8 hrs and i didn't do my hwk!! ohh well off to bed i go now.......lolz FOB PIC thnx Joe the Chinaman lolz it prue jokes.

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dreamt by Matt on 3/22/2004 01:02:00 a.m.

Duel G's mindless rambling... ["A person cannot gain something without losing something, To gain something you need equal value. This is the law of conservation" - Full Metal Alchemist]