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Friday, November 18, 2005 This week at acf was amazing and quite moving, i'm going to warn you that I will be all over the place cause I was blown outta my mind! and I can't get things straight soo just bare with me folks After missing last week due to my final midterms =P and the lack of sleep from my prior blog I finally got to go! missing dinner yet again speaking of which I've been missing 1 meal per days since Tuesdays =.=" health bar is going down.....anayways soo back to acf we had about 10 ppl attending and I was late because I had to photocopy something and there was a line at the library's photocopying machines cause well 1 was "out of order" and there were 3 ppl in front of me waiting and midway there was a paper jam! unbelieveable! (utsc is ghettto!) so anyways I was just in time for worship! and it was a simple Joy playing on the keyboard and the 10 of us just singing songs of praise and I haven't felt it in a long time, but it was really moving like the air was full of angels or something I dunno! afterward one of the leaders Jason was sharing today! and I don't have the best of memories but lets see this is where everything gets messed up I remember demonstrations! so he got Jeff to stand up and face away from him, then he said "if I where you hit you in the back of the head, do you think you could defend yourself?" and Jeff said "probably not" so Jason got Alex to stand back to back with Jeff, so Jason was "so now I suppose it'll be much harder of me to hit you in the back of the head cause Alex is in the way" and this was the end.....leading to........-> the story of King David and how he and a few (three) men defeated an army but how? cause they got each others back like in the demo. with Jeff and Alex they got each others backs soo they wouldn't be vulnerable to attack. Just like David and his 3 friends they covered each others backs and won!...he goes on what good is one solider to face an army he will lose no matter what because he has no one covering his back. Then he related this to our Christian life and our real purpose on life is to spread the word of God right? and speaking from his past experiences that when you stand up for God, Satan will do everything in his power to take you down and it's kinda easier when you are by yourself right? facing the army of devils and such (relating to the demo and David) so he said standing up for the word of God isn't easy, you have to give up everything, you friends, your way of life, school are all up for grabs but not only that you need a bunch of friends to watch your back and be accountibility partners so he made a call to teh fellowship to stand up with him and make a wave at utsc and Bernard was the 1st one to shoot outta his seat sitting next to me and a few other members and I was just thinking about all he said and I didn't wanna stand up in the heat of the moment cause it was a serious we have to do something NOW "now is the time!" The afterward discussion was even better the one who lead worship Joy was talking about how at out age this it our time "now is the time" to act, because many famous inventions and ideas that we learn in school from scientist and smart historians where thought up when they were in their 20s around our age 18-22, because when we get older we will be busy with having a career and families and kids? soo this is the prefect time to do it! then she went on about having faith the size of a mustard seed we can move mountains! and that if we have lil faith to pray to God that is the faith a size a mustard seed that we need to move those mountians! A side note he read this poem thing from this young african pastor who was facing death and it was really inspiring and when I get a hold of it I will send it out or post it on this blog. I think that about wraps is up ohh and near the end of fellowship we saw previews of Passions 05 and it looks amazing!! and I can't wait to go! next Tuesday Nov 22nd!!!!! and it's FREE haha thanks to all the supports and God's will I'm out \| dreamt by Matt on 11/18/2005 03:51:00 a.m. Wednesday, November 16, 2005 I think I have "exam lag" kinda like jet lag but you know for exams....as of right now in the last 4 days I only have had 11 decent hours of sleep...and I totally missed lunch today which was weird...so I know I'm know I'm messed up with sleep and eating habits...which relate to a messed up health =( Heck I'm still wide awake, eyes are a little tired but I dunno... Today was interesting...TTC wise at least....well I went out to to wait for the streetcar at 8am which is "rush hour" time so they should come frequently right? there was like 10 ppl waiting of both sides of the street waiting for the streetcar to go to school or work...well 15 mins later a very slow streetcar comes up with another one tail gating it..seems strange right? so I hop on the streetcar and I see this commissioner/officer watching over the driver....=.=" a NOOB! soo I get on and head to the back and found a seat,ay every stop there was a lot of ppl waiting for the streetcar and while I was in the back of the streetcar I felt the tension in the air...that everyone around me was pissed! haha and it took 2 or 3 times as long as it usually would to get to the sation because he was goign at 5km/hr like seriously!!! omgosh it was soooo slow! and when we got to the sation I saw about 50-60 ppl waiting for the streetcar to make the return trip...=.=" bad would it suck to be them if the Noob driver was taking them.....so anyways I rush down to the subway checking the time every so often and when the train hit Kennedy station I literally bolted out of the train up the escalators and up the stairs then slide on the wet floor towards my bus and thank GOD I got on and the bus left once I got on...phew! Ok in All seriousiness WHY did the TTC place a NOOB driver to train during "RUSH HOUR" does this make any sense to you people...like at all? cause in the morning everyone is rushing to work or school or where every they have to be in the morning so who in their right mind would train a new driver and it was pouring rain! which is just make matters worse!...sigh I just don't get the TTC..."Ride the Rocket" my butt more like "Ride the Snail" .....at least I wasn't late thank god! if not I would have been late for school... Relating to this..my Stats course is messed up we had a quiz today but it was on material from 2 weeks ago! no body expected that everyone studied on the material coverd in the lecture last week not 2 weeks ago.....the Prof said our quizzies would be based on our "last" lecture.... just like the TTC unpredictable and unrealiable and makes no sense!!!!!! so after class I waited for my friend to get outta class so she'll drive me to STC and while I was waiting Ada comes outta no where and we started talking then her bf jumped her from behind lol and I didn't warn her heheh =P After school I went to STC to buy MADAGASCAR!!!! on DVD came out today hehe!! and I bumped into my uncle which was weird but meh had a good chat with him about school and finding work and such. cause he was waiting for my aunt who went "shopping" leaving him "bored haha so when I got into Wal-Mart to get the DVD I was jumped....by Ada..=.=" After STC I was getting off the RT at Kennedy and was going on the escalator and this old white man was in front and he fell =O with a loud thud! everyone was =O....he hurt his back...felt bad for him cause when your old you don't heal very fast at all... then I got to Main Sation and after a while a streetcar finally pulled in and just stalled and stalled some young white couple were being impatient and went up to see why he moved a little bit, but didn't let us in...mind you it's really windy and cold and rain!...grrrrrr then he go "Not in Service" wtc is that!!! then we had to wait another 5min for the 1nd streetcar behind it to take us home..sigh what a day with the TTC. ohh its about time I finally won in Monopoly with willio and steve it was my 1st win outta....30-40 games I know its' sad, but you guys dunno Monopoly....is HATES me!!! a lot! Now watching Smallville and it's really creeeping me out with this Emily girl who acts like a ghost but is a clone apparently.... anyways i'm out \| dreamt by Matt on 11/16/2005 01:42:00 a.m. Sunday, November 13, 2005 I know I haven't blogged in like forever and it's just school.. it's taking a heavy toll on me lately on my time and health... So this pass week...start the week off with a midterm exam that went.....I can't really say cause my nose wouldn't stop dripping... I was like O M Gosh why won't it stop! The thing that really ticked me off was It started at 5pm and ended at 7pm on the dot and that was the EXACT time of my midterm...so if you ask me how did i do? I DUNNO! I was soo disoriented I just did what I could and headed to class from 7-10pm but it ended at 8ish and besides I fell asleep with the 3 hours of sleep I had all weekend....moving on.. Tuesday if you anyone saw my MSN I was really really pissed like my best frd said she never seen me pissed before...well I was on the bus that woud take me half way home since the streetcar failed to show up and it's Tuesday so i had my laptop in my old HS backpack cause it's bigger and had those side pockets to put my waterbottle and pencil case soo I was standing near the back door cause there was only 2 stops until I get off and I didn't wanna take off my backpack cause it's heavy! so on the 1st stop we got 3 more passengers and theres like no seats in the back so I figured those people wouldn't wanna come to the back and I was starting to head to the back door to get off but people didn't really get outta the way and my backpack was big and this stupid "white" lady is trying to get to the back and pushes me and i'm like wtc and she starts complaining like she owned the world....(white ppl just pissed me off soo easily!) she was luck I lacked a lot of sleep and didn't put up a fight...cause I would've owned her soo badly verbally of course...and the back door couldn't really open and I was pissed and yelled at the driver to get me off the stupid bus....man I regreat not swearing at her.....anyways thank God for Russell Peters!!! cause the download was done and it was one good hour of cheering me up a bit...glad he made fun of white people! it was English people which was sooo much funnier cause you know how they're arrogent and all made those jokes hit the spot! Wed, Thurs, Fri...nothing special just struggling to study for my other midterm....which was today in the morning at 9AM ahhh I hate early exams...and I dunno how I did....so don't ask...mention the word midterm or exam and I might snap at you....got home and my dad was cooking up a storm for me so I could eat well (finally!) and try to get some sleep (about time!) well both my parents napped and I watched a movie to try to sleep.....well it didn't work....=.=" then I headed to bed and attempted to get some rest.....3hrs later after some restless sleep I got outta the bed and tried to play Medal of Honor on my desktop computer....it didn't work =.=" not to happy....ok ok I try to go on starcraft battlenet to maybe play some used map setting games....didn't get a single one to work!! people were laggin or banning me! =O wtc! i'm not THAT slow....or was I? I couldn't tell and I felt rejected from the gaming world...so I went downstairs and WPT was on! so I kicked my mom off the tv to watch it since she had to do something anyways =P and I tried to play Gundam SeeD on my PS2.....since after the fall my PS2 has been acting up....today was not my day for gaming....thats for sure and now I have no one to talk to, nothing good on tv, can't sleep at all, just drifting.......and listening to Jay Chou's new album....I don't care what people say! but I haven't stop listening to it since I got it! that and a few other songs...the Initial D 4th Stage opening and ending songs (move - Nosiy Tribe and Nobody Reason) a few Simple Plan songs (Welcome to my World, Untitled, ShutUp!) Dishwalla - Every Little Thing (thanks Steve) FTTS - Missing You, and Avril - Fall to Peices is all I have on my playlist in the last 10 days...sigh i'm out \| dreamt by Matt on 11/13/2005 02:22:00 a.m.

Friday, November 18, 2005

This week at acf was amazing and quite moving, i'm going to warn you that I will be all over the place cause I was blown outta my mind! and I can't get things straight soo just bare with me folks

After missing last week due to my final midterms =P and the lack of sleep from my prior blog I finally got to go! missing dinner yet again speaking of which I've been missing 1 meal per days since Tuesdays =.=" health bar is going down.....anayways soo back to acf we had about 10 ppl attending and I was late because I had to photocopy something and there was a line at the library's photocopying machines cause well 1 was "out of order" and there were 3 ppl in front of me waiting and midway there was a paper jam! unbelieveable! (utsc is ghettto!) so anyways I was just in time for worship! and it was a simple Joy playing on the keyboard and the 10 of us just singing songs of praise and I haven't felt it in a long time, but it was really moving like the air was full of angels or something I dunno! afterward one of the leaders Jason was sharing today! and I don't have the best of memories but lets see *this is where everything gets messed up*

I remember demonstrations! so he got Jeff to stand up and face away from him, then he said "if I where you hit you in the back of the head, do you think you could defend yourself?" and Jeff said "probably not" so Jason got Alex to stand back to back with Jeff, so Jason was "so now I suppose it'll be much harder of me to hit you in the back of the head cause Alex is in the way" and this was the end.....leading to........->
the story of King David and how he and a few (three) men defeated an army but how? cause they got each others back like in the demo. with Jeff and Alex they got each others backs soo they wouldn't be vulnerable to attack. Just like David and his 3 friends they covered each others backs and won!...he goes on what good is one solider to face an army he will lose no matter what because he has no one covering his back.

Then he related this to our Christian life and our real purpose on life is to spread the word of God right? and speaking from his past experiences that when you stand up for God, Satan will do everything in his power to take you down and it's kinda easier when you are by yourself right? facing the army of devils and such (relating to the demo and David) so he said standing up for the word of God isn't easy, you have to give up everything, you friends, your way of life, school are all up for grabs but not only that you need a bunch of friends to watch your back and be accountibility partners so he made a call to teh fellowship to stand up with him and make a wave at utsc and Bernard was the 1st one to shoot outta his seat sitting next to me and a few other members and I was just thinking about all he said and I didn't wanna stand up in the heat of the moment cause it was a serious we have to do something NOW "now is the time!"

The afterward discussion was even better the one who lead worship Joy was talking about how at out age this it our time "now is the time" to act, because many famous inventions and ideas that we learn in school from scientist and smart historians where thought up when they were in their 20s around our age 18-22, because when we get older we will be busy with having a career and families and kids? soo this is the prefect time to do it! then she went on about having faith the size of a mustard seed we can move mountains! and that if we have lil faith to pray to God that is the faith a size a mustard seed that we need to move those mountians!

A side note he read this poem thing from this young african pastor who was facing death and it was really inspiring and when I get a hold of it I will send it out or post it on this blog.

I think that about wraps is up ohh and near the end of fellowship we saw previews of Passions 05 and it looks amazing!! and I can't wait to go! next Tuesday Nov 22nd!!!!! and it's FREE haha thanks to all the supports and God's will

I'm out

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dreamt by Matt on 11/18/2005 03:51:00 a.m.

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

I think I have "exam lag" kinda like jet lag but you know for exams....as of right now in the last 4 days I only have had 11 decent hours of sleep...and I totally missed lunch today which was weird...so I know I'm know I'm messed up with sleep and eating habits...which relate to a messed up health =( Heck I'm still wide awake, eyes are a little tired but I dunno...

Today was interesting...TTC wise at least....well I went out to to wait for the streetcar at 8am which is "rush hour" time so they should come frequently right? there was like 10 ppl waiting of both sides of the street waiting for the streetcar to go to school or work...well 15 mins later a very slow streetcar comes up with another one tail gating it..seems strange right? so I hop on the streetcar and I see this commissioner/officer watching over the driver....=.=" a NOOB! soo I get on and head to the back and found a seat,ay every stop there was a lot of ppl waiting for the streetcar and while I was in the back of the streetcar I felt the tension in the air...that everyone around me was pissed! haha and it took 2 or 3 times as long as it usually would to get to the sation because he was goign at 5km/hr like seriously!!! omgosh it was soooo slow! and when we got to the sation I saw about 50-60 ppl waiting for the streetcar to make the return trip...=.=" bad would it suck to be them if the Noob driver was taking them.....so anyways I rush down to the subway checking the time every so often and when the train hit Kennedy station I literally bolted out of the train up the escalators and up the stairs then slide on the wet floor towards my bus and thank GOD I got on and the bus left once I got on...phew! Ok in All seriousiness WHY did the TTC place a NOOB driver to train during "RUSH HOUR" does this make any sense to you people...like at all? cause in the morning everyone is rushing to work or school or where every they have to be in the morning so who in their right mind would train a new driver and it was pouring rain! which is just make matters worse!...*sigh* I just don't get the TTC..."Ride the Rocket" my butt more like "Ride the Snail" .....at least I wasn't late thank god! if not I would have been late for school...
Relating to this..my Stats course is messed up we had a quiz today but it was on material from 2 weeks ago! no body expected that everyone studied on the material coverd in the lecture last week not 2 weeks ago.....the Prof said our quizzies would be based on our "last" lecture.... just like the TTC unpredictable and unrealiable and makes no sense!!!!!! so after class I waited for my friend to get outta class so she'll drive me to STC and while I was waiting Ada comes outta no where and we started talking then her bf jumped her from behind lol and I didn't warn her heheh =P

After school I went to STC to buy MADAGASCAR!!!! on DVD came out today hehe!! and I bumped into my uncle which was weird but meh had a good chat with him about school and finding work and such. cause he was waiting for my aunt who went "shopping" leaving him "bored haha so when I got into Wal-Mart to get the DVD I was jumped....by Ada..=.="

After STC I was getting off the RT at Kennedy and was going on the escalator and this old white man was in front and he fell =O with a loud thud! everyone was =O....he hurt his back...felt bad for him cause when your old you don't heal very fast at all... then I got to Main Sation and after a while a streetcar finally pulled in and just stalled and stalled some young white couple were being impatient and went up to see why he moved a little bit, but didn't let us in...mind you it's really windy and cold and rain!...grrrrrr then he go "Not in Service" wtc is that!!! then we had to wait another 5min for the 1nd streetcar behind it to take us home..*sigh* what a day with the TTC.

ohh its about time I finally won in Monopoly with willio and steve it was my 1st win outta....30-40 games I know its' sad, but you guys dunno Monopoly....is HATES me!!! a lot!
Now watching Smallville and it's really creeeping me out with this Emily girl who acts like a ghost but is a clone apparently.... anyways
i'm out

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dreamt by Matt on 11/16/2005 01:42:00 a.m.

Sunday, November 13, 2005

I know I haven't blogged in like forever and it's just school.. it's taking a heavy toll on me lately on my time and health...
So this pass week...start the week off with a midterm exam that went.....I can't really say cause my nose wouldn't stop dripping... I was like O M Gosh why won't it stop! The thing that really ticked me off was It started at 5pm and ended at 7pm on the dot and that was the EXACT time of my midterm...so if you ask me how did i do? I DUNNO! I was soo disoriented I just did what I could and headed to class from 7-10pm but it ended at 8ish and besides I fell asleep with the 3 hours of sleep I had all weekend....moving on..

Tuesday if you anyone saw my MSN I was really really pissed like my best frd said she never seen me pissed before...well I was on the bus that woud take me half way home since the streetcar failed to show up and it's Tuesday so i had my laptop in my old HS backpack cause it's bigger and had those side pockets to put my waterbottle and pencil case soo I was standing near the back door cause there was only 2 stops until I get off and I didn't wanna take off my backpack cause it's heavy! so on the 1st stop we got 3 more passengers and theres like no seats in the back so I figured those people wouldn't wanna come to the back and I was starting to head to the back door to get off but people didn't really get outta the way and my backpack was big and this stupid "white" lady is trying to get to the back and pushes me and i'm like wtc and she starts complaining like she owned the world....(white ppl just pissed me off soo easily!) she was luck I lacked a lot of sleep and didn't put up a fight...cause I would've owned her soo badly verbally of course...and the back door couldn't really open and I was pissed and yelled at the driver to get me off the stupid bus....man I regreat not swearing at her.....anyways thank God for Russell Peters!!! cause the download was done and it was one good hour of cheering me up a bit...glad he made fun of white people! it was English people which was sooo much funnier cause you know how they're arrogent and all made those jokes hit the spot! Wed, Thurs, Fri...nothing special just struggling to study for my other

midterm....which was today in the morning at 9AM ahhh I hate early exams...and I dunno how I did....so don't ask...mention the word midterm or exam and I might snap at you....got home and my dad was cooking up a storm for me so I could eat well (finally!) and try to get some sleep (about time!) well both my parents napped and I watched a movie to try to sleep.....well it didn't work....=.=" then I headed to bed and attempted to get some rest.....3hrs later after some restless sleep I got outta the bed and tried to play Medal of Honor on my desktop computer....it didn't work =.=" not to happy....ok ok I try to go on starcraft battlenet to maybe play some used map setting games....didn't get a single one to work!! people were laggin or banning me! =O wtc! i'm not THAT slow....or was I? I couldn't tell and I felt rejected from the gaming world...so I went downstairs and WPT was on! so I kicked my mom off the tv to watch it since she had to do something anyways =P and I tried to play Gundam SeeD on my PS2.....since after the fall my PS2 has been acting up....today was not my day for gaming....thats for sure and now I have no one to talk to, nothing good on tv, can't sleep at all, just drifting.......and listening to Jay Chou's new album....I don't care what people say! but I haven't stop listening to it since I got it! that and a few other songs...the Initial D 4th Stage opening and ending songs (move - Nosiy Tribe and Nobody Reason) a few Simple Plan songs (Welcome to my World, Untitled, ShutUp!) Dishwalla - Every Little Thing (thanks Steve) FTTS - Missing You, and Avril - Fall to Peices is all I have on my playlist in the last 10 days...*sigh*
i'm out

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dreamt by Matt on 11/13/2005 02:22:00 a.m.

Duel G's mindless rambling... ["A person cannot gain something without losing something, To gain something you need equal value. This is the law of conservation" - Full Metal Alchemist]

Friday, November 18, 2005

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

Sunday, November 13, 2005

Duel G's mindless rambling...
["A person cannot gain something without losing something, To gain something you need equal value. This is the law of conservation" - Full Metal Alchemist]